June 2011
8 posts
Apparently if I'm not happy with the way I look, I should just not eat. Thanks dad, that's exactly what I'm going to do.
That feeling when you've been crying for an hour. Like you've got nothing left in you.
I just wanted something go right. Just once.
May 2011
23 posts
Why do good things seem to happen to everyone else BUT me? Is it so much to ask for? To be loved, just once?
I'm so scared. I'm scared i'll never be loved and it terrifies me.
Ever since my mum left, i’ve felt so empty,alone. I see all my friends loved by their parents, boyfriends and I come home everyday to an empty house. I always thought the world was balanced, that when you feel so much pain you’ll find happiness. I’m still waiting for that happiness. I’m still waiting for someone to love me, to let me know that’s it’s ok, that I didn’t deserve this and I’m loved. I guess I starve myself because I can’t find a reason why I’m unloved if it’s not my weight. I can’t wait any longer for someone to love me, I can’t be strong anymore. If I can’t find love why am I here. I don’t know how to live like this, I’m giving up.
Sorry if anyone read this, I just needed to process some thoughts.
Sorry.
My eyes sting from the tears but mostly it's my heart that feels sore.
Dads.
Ok. Haven't eaten all week and I nearly fainted in my English exam. Going to try and eat something that's big enough to keep me going, but no so big I want to kill myself
But now i’m not in my exam I don’t see why I should eat
I don't think I've ever posted anything postive. Every post I've ever made has been me complaining about what ever problems i'm having that day. Even though today was a bad day, tommorow will be another bad day, you have to smile at least once :)
